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SUCH AN UNIMAGINABLE PLEASURE
Daily Meditation, Inspirations, and Practices for the Sacred Masculine, September 20
NOTE: On Wednesday, September 21 I will be hosting open coed workshops at 11am and 6pm Pacific time. You’re welcome to one or both. If you’re not already enrolled in a SacredBodies.ca program, please register soon at sacredbodies.ca. These are small, intimate online circles. We will go deep —and, perhaps, have some fun!
Today's suggested practice: Day 20 of this month's practice... (see below)
My playlist while writing today's meditation: Krishna Das, Saraswati https://music.apple.com/ca/album/saraswati/841010515?i=841010584
My morning practice: 5:30am for 45 minutes of physical, yogic, and meditative practice including Saraswati Meditation
My vulnerability practice: Always, this calling, her request, her need: for me to stand still, quiet, to hear her and allow her storm and her own silence to be all that there is…
Hans Peter Meyer
VIDEO
But what do we need?
Longer version (approximately two minutes) on Instagram:
Short version (approximately 50 seconds) on YouTube:
TODAY'S MEDITATION
Needs. There is a lot of discussion about “getting needs met.” I have little interest or time for these discussions.
If you’re reading this, my guess is that most of your basic needs, the real needs of food, water, shelter, clothing are being met in some fashion. Maybe I’m wrong. But that’s my guess.
To want more than these basic needs is, in this culture of late capitalism/advanced consumerism, normal. Our nervous systems are trained to want, to consume. And with every purchase the craving isn’t cured, perhaps made worse… Yes, I have my personal list of wants. But I’m sure they are not “needs.” That would be a clever trick, one that would let me slip out of the wonder and awe at what this is life is already giving me so much of. Not a trick I want to play on myself. Still, there is always the temptation… The targeted marketing of FB and Instagram do play havoc with my calm…
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Something I’m learning and practicing and teaching is awareness of how much I have to do with this state of calm and not-neediness. I am grateful. I am happy. I cultivate this with my practice.
There’s nothing new in what I’m saying here. What I will say though, is that there is a nuance here on how this is usually taught. That is: it’s not a trick of the mind to experience enough, to be grateful, happy, in love with my life. This is a consequence of how I practice and hold and move my body.
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She sings the Siren’s song that I may experience the unimaginable. That I will be called to smash my wants and expectations of life, what is often called “ego,” on the rocks of what is. Yes, the awful “it is what it is” is where my little ego ship is crushed, Her indifference, Her testing —all of it here for me to die into the unimaginable grace of what She has for me.
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Every once in a while I come through. Smashed. Obliterated. My neediness and selfishness and self-absorption wasted and useless. I stand, naked, my heart aching, open, bleeding. And I am deep enough, grounded enough, strong enough to have survived and to have even greater presence and she is alive to me in unimaginable beauty. Radiance.
And then we are in this dance again. Katrine says she feels this masculine presence when she reads these words, and I am humbled that one so raw in her feminine practice and expression honours these words in this way. When my beloved tells me that I am changed, and that I am beautiful, I weep.
It is an unimaginable pleasure to feel so much trust.
TODAY’S INSPIRATIONS
🌀It’s such a pleasure to feel the masculine every day (Katrine @darkfemininedesire on Instagram)
🌀One of the deepest feminine pleasures is when a man stands full, present, and unreactive in the midst of his woman's emotional storms. When he stays present with her, and loves her through the layers of wildness and closure, then she feels his trustability, and she can relax. (David Deida)
🌀Imagine for a moment, within the boundaries of your life, something outside the boundaries of your imagination. You’re not imagining even close to your known ‘self’...this image has never existed before...be willing to never exist again in this imagined form, in this particular way. (Guru Singh & Guruperkarma Kaur)
🌀The Conscious Warrior practices the cultivation of wonder and awe. (John Wineland, Precept 7)
🌀You are beautiful. (My beloved. My Oracle)
TODAY'S SUGGESTED PRACTICE
Day 20 of this month's practice, take 8 minutes today to sit and listen to, or chant, the Ganesha Meditation... This meditation (Om Gam Ganapataye Namaha) brings our attention to our foundations, our roots, and invokes the Indian god Ganesha, a curious yet powerful character who removes all obstacles.
Please read through first, then ...
Today, sit (or stand) in stillness with these thoughts…. As Guru Singh suggests, Imagine yourself beyond yourself. Imagine that all of this —all the cares and worries of this moment, all of its pains and pleasures, all of it— is …something else. Imagine that it is beyond imagining. This is my promise: that if you practice, daily, and become still enough to hear the silence of the trees growing, you will begin to experience unimaginable nourishment.
Setup: your "setup" for this month's daily practice is how you "hold onto yourself" and receive...
Begin by closing your eyes and aligning your body into its truest, most elegant posture, tucking your chin to lift your heart, tilting your pelvis to straighten your spine. Become still, more still than you've ever been. Your alignment is the physical training for trustworthiness. Bring your hands to your heart, right (masculine) over left (feminine).
Focus on feeling the vibration. That is all.
Set your timer for eight minutes or listen to the “Ganesha” mantra by Deva Primal here:
As the timer signals or the mantra ends allow your eyes to slowly open. Take three, relaxed breath cycles, no pressing, no effort, and feel yourself full, without thoughts, open. Safe to receive. Then, step into your day, letting the mantra echo as a nourishing vibration whenever you become still. You don't need to DO anything. Let the world come to you with its demands, its complaints, and yes, its endless tide of gifts and blessings.✨✨✨
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